Addiction is growing... Part 2.

So now I was intrigued by this... I read up on it as soon as I got home..

If I could save tonnes of money.. and always stay high... wouldn't that be worth it?
I was high when I was thinking of all of this..

I started reading up about it... how to do it.. how it would work..  how it felt.
I first went on a website called erowid ... it's a website about drugs.. it has information on almost every abusable drug. I used to read it before I used any drug... so I would know how much to use for my body type, and weight.

I read up best places to inject... what to do before and after... for a safe injection, just like a doctor.
I figured out everything I would need..

I would need alcohol wipes, clean diabetic needles, either a pinwheel filter, or a micron filter.. I would need polysporn to prevent scaring and I would need sterile water to prevent cotton fever.

Cotton fever is a sickness you can get when injecting... if you inject a small piece of cotton, or even dirt or dust that falls into your spoon, you get violently ill... you get the shakes, and can't stop shaking for anywhere between 30 minutes to a few hours.. you feel cold, and feel like you're going to throw up.. So needless to say I wanted to avoid that.

I walked over to the pharmacy that day, and asked for some diabetic needles "For my friend" .. I was only 16 years old... and they said to me "You're going to need to get your friend to come in a get them" ... "OK" I said... "I'll tell  him that" ..

I was so worried that they would tell my parents... "Fuck this" I thought "This was a horrible idea, I'm going to get in shit.. why the hell would I even do this?"

I went home, and went on line.... I read up about purchasing needles... I wanted to see if you needed to be a diabetic to get them.. it said on line that anyone can buy them.. they're no illegal, you just have to ask a pharmacist and they'll order them for you..

I thought about what I was going to do.. I gave up on this idea today... I would hold off until tomorrow.. then I would decide... did I even want to inject? I never wanted to before..
Maybe I could ask that girl for a clean one? ... but would she actually give me a clean one? What if she had a disease and she gave it to me ? ... yuck... I couldn't have that..

I spent the rest of the day looking up how to do it, and how much I would need... how to hide it from people, things like that..

I decided I would try it tomorrow.. and this time I wasn't going to wuss out.. I had to try it..